my mother feels very guilty NOW about what has happened.

still uses emotional abuse, if she read stuff she would try and probably take tablets or something. we have talked about events to a certain extent, but i don't really think she knows or believes half of what happened.

she's my mum, i love her and try to understand why she left her 8 year old daughter with a paedophile when she'd been warned. but this is the first timein my life i've started to let go, this is me time.

i don't need her coming on here and trying to make herself feel less guilty about what happened. everyone thinks she is the most lovely, caring person who would do anything for anyone

TOTAL CRAP. she is pretentious, unable to love unconditionally and will drink herself into oblivion every night rather than talk to me.

so lets just hope she doesn't find pc. cos i really dont want to leave.

i wish i had the guts to get her out of my life

jinny