Today will be hard, tonight even harder. Tomorrow I'll be seeing my GP and part of of wants to believe he'll be able to offer me an ad that wont destroy my life dont really think that will happen.
My dilemma is that if I give up hope then I may as well not bother with the appt at all. BUT if I allow myself to hope that will make the inevitable disappointment all the more cruel.
Is hope evil or is it necessary, what do you think?