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Originally Posted by Twigs92
I work part- time as I'm a student. When I'm manic and happy it's easy, when I'm depressed it's hell, when I'm manic and angry, or upset, or delusional it's a freaking nightmare and I can barely do my job everything is a blur. However what keeps me going is that when I have a job I get out of the house so I'm not locked in my head, it lets me actually put myself to some use, and social interaction, so while I might be really bad at it on that particular day depending on how I feel, I'm not isolated. It also gives me a sense of worth and stops outright depression completely flattening me, or delusions completely taking over.
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I can completely relate! It is like you took the words out of my mouth! Well said on expressing yourself. I think the 'locked up' in the house feeling is deff something I need to avoid as it only depresses me more when I am home alone. Even at times when my husband and son are at home I still feel alone but comforted knowing there are other voices I can hear. I'm so worried about finding a job, then really liking it, and then having a bad 'low' phase of depression. That's when I withdraw the most of course. Like you, I feel like I can conquer any task on the job if I am in a manic state. I truly appreciate your response!
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