I've never kept a full time job for more than six months I think...or a year for part time. always I fall into depression so severe I dont get out of bed. I guess I'm a great worker up to that point because a few jobs have asked me back and given a second chance but I messed those up too. I'm going to start working with an employment program at the mental health center I recently started going to. They help set people up with employers who apparently get tax breaks for hiring "crazies" and understand what mental illness means for employees. Hoping for luck with that one because fifteen years of this cycle has done a number on my self esteem and wondering if i'll ever be able to do that supposedly simple thing--have a job!