Hey. I think I can relate. Though we may not struggle with all the same things, I know depression far better than I care to.

I have had people tell me I am intelligent. I would like to believe it. But everything I see about myself says differently.

Depression steals the joy out of life. Whenever I see someone having their own "private party", my brain says, I am joining in on this!!!

I cannot relate to the feeling of one's brain being out of body. But, having ADHD, to me is a curse. My brain does not work like most peoples. Poor focus, etc.

I also know what it feels like to just exist. Yes, always tired, not much motivation. Not much fun.

You are not useless!!! Got that? You have been a blessing to many people on this site. I often feel useless. Though it may not be much, I try to be helpful in any way I can. I am not some computer genius or super therapist or other great important person. But, I try to do what I can, when I can, all the while taking care of myself.

UM, I feel your pain. It probably seems never ending. I have been depressed for so long that I about cannot remember what it feels like to be happy. But lately, my attitude has been that this depression is a monster, and I will not let it conquer me.

Hope some of this helps.
Remember, today is Tuesday. Today is your day. Today is self care day.
God's blessings in your heart today.