Hey Zinco. My depression, as you put it, is like yours, it's really resistant to treatment. I have been some sort of depressed since I was 12. I am now 23, so I have had this thing clinging to my back for nearly 13 years now. It's frustrating when treatment makes barely a dent, and you put so much try into it.

You're not having a pity party. Life gets overwhelming, at the worst of times, and we are stuck picking up the mess.

Medicaid LOVES denying people the first time they apply. I had to apply twice to get accepted. I say re-apply, see what happens, and if there is no outcome, appeal the decision and get on the phone with as many people as you can who get medicaid working.