Sounds to me like you could benefit from being medicated. Since yr untreated, of course yr going to feel the pain of cycling through the ups and downs of bp. Do you have a good pdoc? I would encourage you to get into see one asap. I too have a song with aspergers and man is that hard to deal with even for parents who don't have mental illness. To be blunt I will say that yr answer is meds. Please get some help. You may need to be hospitalized to get stable. Take care. Yr family needs you to get better. It's hard to be a parent but throwing mi into the mix makes it that much harder.

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