I felt like I could of cheated on him.

I went to craigslist for sex

Okay, so I exaggerated a little, but only because I woke up really turned on for sexual relief and I don't understand why.

I don't get it, sometimes I wake up highly highly aroused, like I am not myself, like I can't control myself sometimes. I have to relieve any sexual tension inside before I can feel sane again. I never get like this, only when I am trying to sleep. It's weird, it follows a weird pattern. It's usually I'll be asleep for a short time, and I wake up highly aroused. The most I ever been turned on, is when I get like this during sleep, I am never like this on a regular day when I am out and about doing stuff or at home or with my boyfriend. Usually I wake up naked, like I have no control over it, I just wake up naked, and then when I actually wake up...I'll be doing what ever and then stop and realize "why did I do all this...why did I get naked? What was I even dreaming about?" I never remember what I dreamed,I don't even think I dreamed.

Anyways, it goes on all different levels, but yesterday, it was different. I was just really turned on. I was thinking, maybe I'll go walk around naked outside or in the house, but I didn't want to, then I thought I'll make an ad on craigslist, I didn't want to, and I would never go through with it, I only did it for some sexual arousal relief.

I would never cheat, but the fact I actually made a complete post, worries me, but I made sure to delete once I was sane and relieved.

What's wrong with me? Why do I get like this?

Again, I would never cheat, it was only because I was sexually aroused, I didn't even think about it when I woke up. I never feel like myself when I get like that. And again, I only been like that when I wake up highly aroused. I never been like that when I am actually awake during my day doing what ever I do.

I just can't believe I made a post. Again, I don't think I could have never gone through with it, and once I got relief I came to my senses, but I can't believe it still got posted...