Hello friend. I just posted some practical ideas of how I am dealing with depression myself. I am sorry you feel like this. KNOW THIS though. That there is a plan. And it's not for nothing. In my college bible study group we just went through a book called "Trusting God" (stay with me here please)- And in one of the chapters we talked about how God doesn't waste pain. Every moment has a purpose. And for those who know Him- it is only for our good.

Also- as you should know and remember being a therapist that all battles of the mind are Bio-Psycho-Social (and I liked to add Spiritual as well to that list). So you know that only taking Prozac helps the Biological part of it. Not the Psych- or Social part. And trust me when I say I know how it feels when you feel like a hypocrite. I went around for four years at my highschool being a "leader" and "inspiration" for middle schoolers and the elementrary when the whole time I had been in my own deep sin of self injury and self focus that came out through various destructive forms. You'd be surprised though how understanding people will be. I had the chance to tell my school and share my story and everyone was extremely kind.

You can do it. I believe in you. I hope you find this peace that I have now. It's a peace far greater than any temporary peace.

Please check out my post on just some practical things that have helped me.

Feel free to message me for support and more LOVE

Also- It would be humbling... but it would be a good idea for you to make sure you have someone to talk to. No one is meant to be alone.

Love- Mystery