Hello everybody

I'm a senior undergraduate student from MA. I was diagnosed with Bipolar II almost 4 1/2 years ago. I also have the dx of GAD, PTSD, & ADHD. I've been extremely stable for the majority of time I've been at college. I've had a few depressive/manic episodes but have always bounced back. But now during my senior year, when I'm so close to the finish line and am up for a spot in a forensic psych grad program, I'm spiraling into a depression. My depression, tearfulness, and irritability is more than I can control and my emotions feel bigger than I can keep inside my body. I'm reluctant to tell my support system because I have already devastated them so many times and I can't fathom doing it again. I fear that my boyfriend doesn't understand my BP and is scared/turned off by it which will cause him to leave. I always think that it's unfair that people should have to suffer like this with BP or any MI and it infuriates me. I have few friends- most have drifted away because of my dx. I'm at my wits ends and I don't know what to do with myself any longer.

Can anyone help?