I hate crashing down. I had three good days and once again I am at the bottom. I am just so tired of never knowing what to expect. Today was just one of those days. I hadn't realized how behind I was with my school work. I just hate myself so much, how I look, talk, am, just everything. I am just so tired of it and don't know how to deal with it. I hadn't had urges to cut in a few weeks but they are back, and they are strong. I am really trying to stay strong but it is just so hard.