I know what you mean. I am on disability because I was so depressed, I couldn't function at work. I am still not doing great, but I think just having work to do rather than sulk at home may help me. Could you get a part-time job just to get you out of the house? I am not sure if I can make it at work, but I feel the need to get out and be productive - I totally understand what you're saying about feeling unproductive. Depression sucks!!! I have to think it can be beat!