It's been pretty long since my last post explaining my situation a few months before. Well, here's an update on how I am doing. Strap in ladies and gentlemen, it's going to be a bit long. Lets start where I left off. Things were seemingly becoming better, I had signed up at my local UFC gym and took boxing to ease my anger. Everything was becoming happier for me. I had enough courage to confide to "Lola" (the girl of my dreams and close friend) about my current situation and what I was going through. During my venting, she told me that she and her boyfriend had broken up in secret a few weeks before. I had thought that he did something to hurt her and end the relationship so I quickly became angry. But then she told me they both agreed to break up, due to their schedule and no time to be with each other. She told me how she still missed him. I tried to comfort her as much as I can, and we became even closer after that. Although it's been a month or two, I still don't have the courage to ask her out. But that's enough of my love life, here's the real problem. As the title suggest, I cut ties with most of my close friends who I called my "family". It all happened yesterday. We were talking online with each other on a group chat for Facebook. That's when hell broke loose. "John" (not his real name) asked us to add him back when we were done having a conversation with each other. So he left and we added him back a couple messages later. Apparently he misunderstood one of my messages and thought I had been talking trash about him after he left the group chat. He proceeded to insult me and left the conversation once more. I added him back and quickly explained that it was a misunderstanding, that he read it wrong and I was referring to something else. He still continued to attack me and hit me in a very vulnerable spot. Now, I would of expected that he would continue to attack me since we had tension between us before, but not to the degree that he did. I quickly became angered and spewed a few foul words of my own and we both left the chat. I had slowly come to hate most of them throughout these past few months and was on the edge. Later on, I learned that most of them sympathized with John and not me, something inside me snapped and my hatred for them exploded. Now I hate them with every ounce of my soul, for all I had done for them this is how I get treated in return. For them to sympathize with John for something that he caused hurt me so much. They had sided with him, said that I was off my mind. I felt betrayed beyond belief, I felt angrier than ever, I thought to myself "This is how they treat me...this is how they repay me...after all I had done for them! This is how they repay me!". I vented to Lola and Clyde (one of the last few close friends I can trust) and told them that I had no further interest in seeing, hearing, or dealing with any of the others ever again. They tried to convince me that all of this was going to be solved and we'd all be friends again, but after this, I don't think I ever want to speak to the others again. After several attempts, they had given up and told me that they'd still be at my side and I thanked them for that. I feel relieved that I don't have to deal with them anymore, but now I feel like I'm in an immense storm of hate, anger, and sadness. I can feel the massive amounts of hatred churning inside me, I feel like I want to light the world on fire and watch it burn. My closest friends, my so called family. We had been through so much together, I had helped them at the expense of my own health, I had climbed to the top of a mountain of pain for them only to be stabbed and kicked back down the mountain by them! That's all for now. I'll keep you guys updated if something pops up again. Thanks for reading, I hope you guys are doing better than I am. Now excuse me while I go and scream out my lungs and smash something.