I can eat solid foods, its just that when I eat, I can't stop. So I'd rather eat too little or not at all rather than eating too much. Getting someone to remove the label for me would be a really hard thing for me to do, which is mainly why I don't want to go to the hospital. I watched a documentary called "Thin" and I saw all the food that was on those plates and my heart just dropped. I want to know how much of what is going into my body at all times.

I've accepted the fact that I do have a problem, which of course is the first step, but I keep talking myself into thinking that its okay. I honestly can't take a break though to go to a hospital. I'm taking summer classes to try to get my associates when I'm 19. I can't miss too many days or else my instructor will drop me from the class. She's already told me the program she would be sending me to so I've done research on it, but the information is very limited so that bugs me.