I hate to be harsh, but I am going to be. Do you want to get your associates or be 6ft under? If you continue down this road of not eating or eating very little, your body will start shutting down. Do you want that? I totally understand what it is like to have dreams and goals. My daughter has danced for almost 10yrs and I hadn't missed a single recital until her May/June 2012 recital. I was bound and determined that I wasn't going to miss that one, but others had other plans. My weight was so low that I had to go inpatient again, and I was going in before recital. It was put to me this way: "Do you want to see your daughter dance again and miss this one recital or go to recital and not be there for the years to come?"

Being in a treatment facility isn't as bad as what you think. They aren't going to start you on a HUGE meal plan; for you, it will probably be a re-feeding meal plan. This means that the 3 meals are smaller and you will probably have 3 snacks also. You might not know how many calories you are getting but the dietician will know and make sure you are getting enough to sustain you. The facility where I was didn't allow us to know calories, but we knew what was considered a fat, meat, fruit, etc. and how many of each we were allowed. This gave us freedom in choosing what we had for our meals and some control as to what we were putting into our bodies.

My suggestion would be to try and eat and maintain your weight right now, and then reassess things at the end of the school year. IF you still need to be inpatient, the go. I can tell that you have high aspirations for yourself if you are taking college classes along with high school. You want to be able to use that knowledge in the future.

It has been almost 2yrs since my last ED hospital admission and a little over a year since my last relapse. If the place your T is looking at has recovery speakers, I highly suggest listening to them. The place I went has since closed their doors, yet I remember one of the recovery speakers reading us Dr. Seuss' book Oh the Places You'll Go. It really made me stop and think about where I wanted to be in life.

I wish you the best.