Thanks for your thoughts everyone. I really appreciate them.
It's funny how I am afraid of being alone but then I am too exhausted to spend alot of time with people so I make myself even more alone. Confusing!!!! Yesterday I was so miserable and tired and I had just got to sleep when someone came to my house to visit me but I didn't answer the door. I was scared and I didn't feel that I could carry on any kind of entertainment. I didn't even know who it was. Ah...life is killing me.