Ty Amelia that was what I thought as well. Maybe he does just want to feel liked. But I've made it very clear that I think he is great at what he does. Things are just different with him. I dont know that he is actually intending to flirt or if I just think he's charming and clever and I'm responsive to it. He made a comment that struck a cord.. "there's a fine line between a good therapist and a good boyfriend" and I said he's wrong to think that all men think the way he does. And at least his girl is lucky. I also made the point that there aren't THAT many male therapists. I think I read 10%.
So anyhow I go in to my last appointment and he has my card displayed on his desk!! How humiliating and unexpected. He thanked me (more than once) and said that he's going to use the starbucks card. Honestly I was expecting a boundaries talk or something. But I told him I felt I was mean to him about things. And honestly I feel bad because he is so nice and honestly I would say nice things to him as well. But I know how it would come across. Maybe he's just trying to make me think nice things about men again.. and that would be painful I think. Mostly because he is one in 100,000 and he is also temporary =( we actually talked again about my desire to be alone and he said maybe one day you will run in to a man who makes you realize there are good people out there and change your mind about being alone. And yes, of course I wanted to say it sure sounded like he was thinking maybe he'd change my mind and think all guys are like him. But that's not reality. And I know he knows I think he's amazing because the card said it (wince)
And I am making progress but idk if its the actual therapy or his pretty face and charming personality that make me want to do better. And if it actually him I know its short-lived. Then what?
Mike- he knows I think he's very handsome. It was brought up before. But I respect him. And its not like I sit there daydreaming about marriage or sex. Although I did want to touch him when he wore a cashmere sweater. But I like the way it feels. And ok I have wondered what he looks like wearing some red Winter Silks.. =) if you don't know what they are google em.. every man should own a pair.. my opinion anyhow!
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