I can understand that completely. But you need to find other ways to cope with problems. Although cutting may give you some relief, its just temporary.

I used to cut, but I eventually got to a point where I realised that it wasn't helping me - just leaving scars that brought me more shame...

I have some ideas for coping with the urges (some have probably been mentioned many times in other posts):

• Rubber bands on the wrist
• Finding something else to take your pain out on (I was often outside hitting bushes with golf clubs!!!). Maybe a punching bag, rolled up carpet, kicking a ball - something physical.
• Whatever you find relaxing (music, reading...).
• Doodling or drawing something that requires a lot of concentration.
• Disposing of tools (or getting someone to hide them) that you could potentially use to hurt yourself.

Just try and think about something that will work for you.

I know it is difficult, but I hope you soon realise that cutting yourself won't heal or help any pain that you are feeling.

I wish you all the best.

bluegoat