Hey guys, I dunno what the hell's wrong with me. I'm really bummed about my hair lately. I am a female and I have kept it short for the longest time. I just like it like that I guess. Sometimes I will cut it because it looks uneven or I am stressed. Sometimes it is "buzzed." I have always done it myself and have even got complements in the past. Some people have said I look like a model or something lol. Most of the time I just wear a hat and don't even think about it with the intention of growing it out. I was laid off for a couple of months but started a new job yesterday, so wearing a hat is out of the question. I guess I am nervous about how people perceive me. I didn't even realize hair cutting was a "thing" but it seems other people do it too. I am not really super obsessive about it but I always feel really weird sporting a crew cut or buzz cut because of what people will think of me in the hick town I live in. I have a loving spouse and a beautiful son, but I hate where I am in life. I hate where we live-there is nothing here. I have no friends other than my husband. I can't remember the last time I had a friend. I feel so awkward and weird. I am trying to finish my bachelor's and make something of myself. I feel like people don't get me though. Just want to feel like I belong but I get nervous around people not to mention I feel so ugly it's difficult for me to interact with people sometimes. I know it's probably in my head, but I just wish I had friends or that I had a meaningful job. Most people in the past just try to screw me over or take advantage that I am a really nice person. I wish I had people to talk to. My own mom hates me even though I've done nothing to her.

I am really a nice person and would do anything for people I care about. I am not usually the type to complain about my life or whatever but I don't know how else to get it all out so if someone even takes the time to read this I will start to feel a little bit better.