@ Zwangsstörung You're right it was a cry for help. And that's supposed to be a bad thing? I shouldn't ask for help?? Yeah maybe a little unfair but when is helping someone ever not a burden somehow?? Its the harder path. That was completely unhelpful and a bit damaging in fact.

That being said all I have is a psychiatrist for medication. I don't do shrinks anymore. Spent too much money for them to ask me how my day was and why i didnt' acomplish anything.

Everyone else, thanks for your replies I know this is just a minor setback >.<