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Talulah said:
I support this journey.

I am so very sorry that you have gone through what you have endured. Nobody should ever even have to say the words you posted above.

You really do need a support though, and if your husband is related to these issues (as you have revealed) I hope you have a therapist or someone trusted that it accessible to you anytime.

PC of course is here but I mean someone in your city / area with which to begin this journey.

You are very brave.

Thank you for being here.

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Thank YOU - for your SUPPORT and for having FAITH in ME........ and Yes, while my own husband is related to (the cause of) some of my issue - he is very much aware of the fact (his part in it all) and HE is willing to do what ever it takes to help make our life and our love/trust better (he has changed) and HIS wrongs stopped over 5 years ago and now it is me that needs to move past it all.

My husband and I have spent a few years in counselor together, not to mention the eight straight years that I "myself" have spent in counseling (for depression, suicide attempts and my Dx of DID) - both as an in patient and as an out patient involved in group therapy to help me get better and to help me heal from past wounds.

It is this time that my husband and I have put into HEALING (spent in counseling) that has now placed me in the position to step out on my own to finish what My T and I started almost 10 years ago..... I have had a long discussion with T over all this and she is very supportive of my desire to move forward and she personally feels that I am ready to work on my own and that any healing I still have left undone in me is the final healing I personally need to complete alone - I (the person that was left behind to live after tragedy and destruction of self).... and "IF" it ever comes to the point that I feel I need help or that I have fallen into a hole that I cannot get out of on my own - my T is just a phone call away.

I personal am ready and that is what makes the quest I seek for inner completion worth the life I once lost - for I aim to take it back..... I will not FAIL!!

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Now..... all I ask is:

"IF" any one notices a post in this thread I have started here in Survivors (a quest to help me complete my healing process and to gain better control over my present life & inner emotions) that should not be here due to its ugliness or disrespect... please do ME a favor and Notify Admin / Mod ASAP!! about it - by clicking on the icon at the bottom of this thread - every post has this option.

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Thank you...
LoVe,
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