So, just in case anyone might be interested in what I've been up to, I finally cut ties with the woman that I love. I have spoken to several people about this situation and everyone (except for me of course) agreed that all she was doing was toying with my emotions. I had almost been able to move on when she contacts me out of the blue to let me know she loves me but is in a new relationship with someone else. It devastated me.

So last night I messaged her. I told her that what she did to me was inappropriate, especially considering the fact that she had to have known what it would do to me. I did tell her that I will love her forever (which I will), but that it's best that we do not communicate with each other from here on out. Then I deleted her phone number, all photos I have of her, and I got rid of every picture I painted or drew for her. She is no longer a part of my life.

This is the first time in my life that I have actually stopped being codependent on someone who is emotionally harmful to me. I want to say I feel free, and I kind of do, but... I do miss her. Tremendously. And I'm scared.