Hello all. I could use some much needed advice. Right now I am in a circular point in my life. It seems that ever since I was diagnosed bipolar I have been repeating the same small portion of my life over and over again. First, I exhibit symptoms of depression, then I exibit mania, then I decide I should get help because I am exhausted from my state of mania. So, I see a therapist and it starts to work and I agree to see a psych for meds and I get on meds and about 3 or 4 months in I decide I don't like the doctor becase they are impersonal and dont care about me as a person, they only seem to care about doing their job and could really care less about me individually or what happens to me in the long run (whether or not this is true does not matter. i am set in my mind that this is the way the p doc is and i suddenly dont like them). So, I decide to stop taking my meds becuase it clearly doesnt matter to anyone else so why should it matter to me and then I end up cycling through depression and mania again and then the same pattern happens over and over again. I have finally found a t doc that i like, but just recently started disliking my p doc and I stopped taking me meds and seeing the doc again. i need help. i need some support from someone who has had this happen to them before or something similar and what they did to overcome this. i have been reading up on borderline personality disorder and i think i exibit quite a few of those symtpoms and am now wondering if the docs even diagnosed me right in the beginning (my original p doc experience was definitely not at all to my approval - very very negative). So i am thinking that he was all wrong from the start and for the past 6 yrs perhaps the reason the meds arent working is because i am diagnosed incorrectly. please...someone help! thanks all!!!