I, too, have prayed that God would take me. This has been going on for 30 years, so I guess he's not ready yet. I'm 61 now and hope everything that goes wrong medically will end my misery, but not so far. Just more stuff to deal with. I've been hospitalized twice for suicide ideation, but couldn't go through with it. Depression sucks.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha
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