It sounds like you have some stuff going on that it would be normal to be bummed out about.

Have you talked with your boyfriend about a fairer division of cleaning duties? Perhaps a discussion about how you feel like you have limited your own circumstances by loaning him money towards his future is also worthwhile? Do you two have some sort of plan worked out where after he finishes his school, it's your turn?

Sometimes when I feel like I have no motivation, I try to summon up the energy to set myself up for changing the situation. I am not sure how to explain what I mean. Like, it only takes an hour or two to find an adult ed class and sign up for it... but it's really easy to spend days, weeks, months agonizing over which degree program to choose.

For me, it's been better to just sign up for any class I am halfway interested in. Instead of a full blown glass blowing program, maybe you could find a 3 month fusing course for hobbyists. The sense of accomplishment you get from finishing a course like this can be huge. It can turn a vicious cycle into a virtuous cycle that leads you to a clearer vision of your future and motivation to pursue those goals.

Sometimes it's best to just do *something*, even if you aren't sure what you really want to do. A little change can be really empowering and help with other motivational difficulties.