I don't think you're causing them, but as someone mentioned maybe you are seeing the cues of things to come. For the longest time I didn't want to read anything on BP, I figured what do I need to read up on it if I live it on a daily basis. And finally I read into it, I got too deep into it, I started feeling more awful and insecure with myself for what I have.

My thoughts get me in trouble a lot, for example at night lately I just can't sleep because of racing thoughts. I find that when I'm out and about or keeping busy I don't have to time to ponder oh yeah I'm BP. So I suggest keep busy, do what makes you happy, and if you see signs that think you're going a depressive or manic state then take action. Go for a walk, clear your mind, talk to your pdoc or therapist.

It's hard for me to say to myself on a daily basis that BP doesn't define me. I am more than that, much more! And you are too!