DO NOT FEEL GUILTY ABOUT FEELING DEPRESSED! It's a common occurrence with bipolar disorder - thus it's the illness that's at fault, not you. I've suffered many deep depressions (alternating with manic-psychosis) but I always seem to barely survive. It's so very hard - and I understand, but rely upon your "support" people. You have a boyfriend - well lean on him. You have a psychiatrist, then contact him/her to prescribe some good stuff for you. And if you have a therapist, get in touch with him or her as soon as possible. You did a great thing by contacting us here - because we know what you're feeling.