Ah yes. The magic. The power. The sensuality. The complete understanding of the true nature of the universe. The purple rain. The different way I see things.

And ya know I often times hate bipolar and curse this illness but a part of me strangely enjoys being "different" in having something secret about me. Of having seen and done things other people can never dream of or understand. I don't know. It makes me oddly special. Like Alex Mack or something.

And this isn't my fave part really I guess but another strange part I like is that having been to hell and back a couple of times and overcome stuff most people never have to deal with makes me feel kinda bad ***. I'm a fighter, a survivor. I'm stronger than anyone I know will ever understand. And that makes me feel good about myself in an illness that often makes me feel horrible about myself.