I know people will not fully understand unless they have BP, but I'm tired of alienating myself, it's lonely. I can vent to my therapist but I would like a friend or 2 to at least be there to listen. I went to a NAMI support group but I couldn't relate because everyone there could have been my grandparent.
I know my sisters don't get it. When I was in my deepest depressions 1 sister told me just stop crying, you look ugly. My other sister thinks I should stop taking my meds and just eat well and exercise. And my youngest sister whose 19 is going to therapy herself because life has sucked living with a BP parent. She's a teenager so she doesn't really want to talk.

Maybe my friends and family won't understand me but I just need them to be there when I need a shoulder to cry on, just listen and hear me out even if they can't relate. Just knowing they're there is something for me.