I've always questioned my diagnosis. I was 32 when I was diagnosed with MDD. That was easy to accept and lived for years battling depression. When i was 42 I started acting out of character, flirting, high energy, ect. It lasted for a couple of years, caused my divorce after 24 years, affair with much younger man and many other things including drinking. I slipped back in depression and that lasted until I was 49 and again I started acting out in the same way as before for about 2 two year. Current husband put up with me and my acting out included sexual acting out. Now I've been depressed for 2 years and am 61.

My doctor just down graded my diagnosis from BP1 to BP2. Is is normal to go so long between highs? If I don't have any more highs does that mean I'm not bipolar anymore. Was I every truly bipolar? I know that no one here can diagnose me here but just thought somebody might comment on their experience. I'm just so confused because I've never been this depressed for this long and nothing is working.

I hope this makes some since. I seemed to started rambling. Sorry.