i would put this on another forum like the eating disorder one but since i have friends here so idk.

but so far i ate 284 calories today and im gonna see if i can keep it under 300 or 500 today. im hungry but i need to lose weight.

my anxiety is high right now. i tried to smoke a cigarette or two to calm down but its not working and im scared to use my xanax cuz i dont have but a one month supply. im smoking less tho. 3-4 cigs a day instead of 5-6 or more. some days i smoked just 2.