hi i know what you mean about believing in something and having nothing to hold on to, its like being in freefall.i have tried lots of therapies medications religions all have had little real value, i recently realised that i could not solve my depression i thought i'd have a go at surrendering and handing it over to a higher power, can only say that i'm sleeping a little better and i'm less anxious i read this idea in a book and i'll see how it goes, i'm very sceptical about most things but it may be worth a try take care