I have worked for my colleges barn for over a year and a half now. I love it, love working with the horses, I have really learned a lot. But a lot of times it gets lonely and my depressiongets in the way. I have low self esteem and i work with with these college students who can make me feel very small and unimportant. I always wish I had half the guts and strength to do what the students here do. My anxiety causes me to not be able to ride and it kills me. Just wish i didn't have this mental problem and just want to be like everyone else and just ride and have fun.