I think it's part of human nature to question a diagnosis that is lifelong. I have fought my diagnosis ever sense it was suggested 20 years ago. I believe that it will never go away. I have hope that I can get my moods to where I can function appropriately in this world, that is very unfriendly to invisible disorders that exist in the mind.

I'm deep in the downs and as I get older I find my cycles are faster. I hate the depressions because I can't maintain and I'm on the verge of losing everything right now if I can't work.