Although I'm pretty flat as far as emotions lately, the one I can say comes up the most is frustration. I have been self-sabotaging all my life and understand a lot of that comes from some learned behaviors and low self-esteem, some from this illness.

I feel deficient at times like this. Like something that most people get a good dose of was forgotten in me or something. Does anyone else share this? I noticed that some of you have been able to achieve "success" in the world and I just despair that I'm ever going to make it. I worry for my future.