I'm kind of conflicted about how I feel to be honest…my stress is pretty much under control (or about as good as it's going to get anyway), but I'm not sure it's worth the sacrifice (in other words, the side effects). I'm sort of thinking that it's not worth being calm for. And I can't go see the good pdoc until I'm enrolled back in school…the one I have now doesn't care about my well-being. The side effects pretty much make me unable to achieve much sexual release (even from myself) yet able to keep the same sex drive and be able to be fully aroused. I don't know if I can ever be truly comfortable in a relationship now (which is what's important to me, not the sex necessarily) because I want to enjoy sex (and even kissing) too, you know? I guess I just have to decide whether I want to be calm or happy. I can't have both apparently.

Edit: Sorry if that's too much info…I figured someone would ask me what the side effects are anyway.