How does someone who has been depressed for 15-20 years get over depression? I have no money, I live in a new city, I'm terrified of everything, and suffer from mild anxiety... from anything social. I come from a family that was severely against therapy. I cannot live this depressed, pathetic existence anymore. What steps can and should I take?

I feel alone and helpless. How do I start to live a life that isn't so negative?

P.S. I don't think a website that has a forum on depression should have an option to "Disable smilies in text".