I just wanted to add why I say my husband is such a great guy since all of this seems to be negative. From the beginning od our relationship he has been so caring and supportive. We were together three years before we got married and he has helped me so much. He is funny, he is caring, kind, a strong man. He sat by my side when I told him about my horrific past abusers. He has supported me through the years of therapy and me trying to change. He has never given up on me. He has helped me raise my daughter since she was one treating her as his own. He helped build my confidence and self worth when there was nothing left in me. When I started having unexplained seizures he didn't leave my side at the hospital. He cried with me. When my anxiety ht an all time high after the seizures I was waking up all hours of the night shaking uncontrollably and he would get up without me asking each time (often four or five times a night) to rub my back to help calm me down. He goes iut of his way with almost everything to keep me happy and stress free. If it weren't for his obsession with the guitar and the financial stress I would be the only one making mistakes in this marriage. He is my best friend, he is my forever husband and I refuse to give up on us. I just hate having this feeling, this sadness. I juat feel as if he isn't givig any consideration to our finances or any to our family when the guitar comes into play. Maybe I'm just hormonal but I'm the scrwq up. I don't like thinking anuthing badly in regards to him because he has been my rock through so much.
My t said this feeling is a loss of respect for my husband. But to me its more of a loss of security with my husband. Not just financially but emotionally as well. If a guitar can get in the way of our marriage and he is ok with us sellig everything we own, how much does he really love us?