He, I'm new her. 50 yo female. Diagnosed Bipolar II about ten years ago. Had gastric sleeve surgery end of November. Started having hard time swallowing and keeping pulls down. Just stopped meds late December. My husband of 17 years suddenly died on January 4. I went back to see my psy a few weeks ado. He put me on mirtazapine15 mg (dissolves under tongue). I take it at night. It makes me feel like a zombie and makes me extremely hungry. I've lost 50 pounds since my surgery and have gained 5 in the past week. I think I'm going to stop taking it. I'm crying all the time. I feel like ****. I have to have my gallbladder removed next week. The discovered enlarged liver with swollen lymph glands on liver and are going to watch it for a few months. I have 3 grown kids. They stay busy. I hate life now. No point in it. Nothing to live for. I do go to grief counselling every other week. O tomorrow. Beginning to wonder what is the point in that. Ugh. Life just sucks and hot sure what to do.

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