Thanks DJ and bizi: Yes, I agree with both of you that proper nutrition, exercise and sleep are vital!

On 1-11-07 I started a "diet", the 6-week Body Makeover. It's shows you how to eat good and eat 6 little meals throughout the day. It also encourages exercise. Over the course of about 8 weeks, I lost about 10 pounds. I weigh about 212 and am 5'6" tall. I need to lose weight for my health. I was feeling alot better because I was eating good food. No junk, food, salt, or sweets. Plenty of protein, carbs, fruits, and veggies. I also joined a gym and went faithfully for about 1 1/2 weeks. But trying to do all of that at the same time because overwhelming, so I haven't eaten right or exercised in about the last 2 weeks.

As I have a 7-year-old, we both go to bed by 9pm and get up by 7am. I usually get plenty of sleep. I have the problem of staying OUT of bed. I get so depressed or anxious or overwhelmed at everything I need to do in a day, I just go back to bed and sleep. Saturday night, I was stupid and stayed up until 4am playing with my computer. Then was up by 8am. I felt horrible all day long!!

I'm hoping to get back to the gym this week and at least walk on their treadmill for at least 30-45 minutes a day. Then slowly work back up to doing some of their classes. Plus I'm going to slowly work back onto my eating plan. I just can't jump into both of them at the same time.

Bizi, I know benzo are not good and can be addicting, but I have severe panic attacks. Sometimes they come from nowhere and sometimes I get so anxious and can't stop the anxiety that I panic.

At this time, I do not have a therapist and haven't had one in years. I haven't been able to work, so haven't been able to afford one. Just last week though, I was admitted to the center for MHMR and they have a list of several that will either see me for free or a nominal $5.00 per visit. Some of these are college students, which I'm not crazy about trusting a child to my mental health. But MHMR says that their professor is right there. I'm planning on checking them out some time this month.

Thanks for all of your concern and replies. It helps me to not feel that I'm alone. I appreciate it very much!!!