Yes, I understand. Even the one friend who knows and has been there for me, I do not "cry on his shoulder". I think that is one reason our relationship works, sad as this may seem. But I do have one outlet. There is a person at Denny's who is a regular like myself. He puts up with my worries and wining. I have even showed up at his doorstep with my problems. He helped me when this happened. So I guess I am lucky. Help can come from the most unlikely people such has himself. I would have never guessed this was possible from him. He has his own problems: massive depression, no water, no electricity, no money, just one step from being homeless. And he still has time for me!