This is so me, lol. Reading this reminds me of a number of past experiences similar to yours. To go through this is all of those feelings and more. The way I see it is, consider yourself lucky. Not many people get to experience this. That was one of my first thoughts, and that's how I got through it. Good to hear that you got some verification and I'm sorry about the negative feelings. Just know that what you're feeling is an appropriate reaction to something like this.