I was where you are now. It has taken over 10 years for the doctor to find the right med combo that may actually allow me to hold down a job. Before meds were just keeping me functional, no more than that. This is what the doctor considered as a "success". Other times I was very depressed, almost catatonic. There was a span of a couple years before this happened all over again.

Time will tell. But if I go back to work ft and a few years later come out of remission, then what is going to happen to me? This concern of mine has plagued me for years.