Completely, 100%, as honest as I can be. I want someone to know me, not my façade but the real ****ed up individual underneath. There have been times I lied unintentionally and corrected it after the fact, for example when asked do you feel uncomfortable right now, "no", then later on "ok I lied I am uncomfortable." It just didn't seem like a lie to say no the first time, haha. But that is just a drop in the bucket compared to what I withhold, and I really hate that I do because my whole story is just boring, there's nothing much to be ashamed of except for fantasizing about my T... but I withhold way more than that. I withhold things I want to talk about, I mean that's the level of problem. I withhold compliments! I am literally too embarrassed to say something nice, often, when I'm thinking it.
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