Your life is not going to be ruined. I know it feels that way right now, and it's a perfectly valid way to feel. However, why do you feel that way? What do you think is going to happen to ruin your life? It seems to me that you are simply going to end up getting some help. That seems far from ruination to me. If you ever need to talk, about anything at all, I'll be here. Good luck, and I hope all goes well. You're going to be just fine.