Hi Perna -- I'm not sure what you mean. Since being diagnosed with a chronic illness that slows me down, I find it very hard to be self-disciplined. I used to consider myself a very disciplined person, who finished what she started and had life "under control" whatever the heck that means.

It definitely affects my self-esteem. I can know that I have an illness -- be it physiological or a mental health depression sapping my strength -- but emotionally, it often feels like weakness, failure, not being good enough.