Thanks to all of you who replied. Hormones could have been a factor at the time. It just feels like the depression will never lift. Of course, I'm scared of manic episodes because I am so self-destrucive.

Cool9, I have in fact read An Unquiet Mind and read Carrie Fishers artical. I can't really relate to either, except for the depression. My manic symptoms seem to be different somehow.

Thank you again for the responses.