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I used to think that this was just anxiety related and kind of like an obsessive compulsive thing.
But I read in the PTSD workbook that a lot of magical thinking (when you think that you can control the outcome of things by what you do or think) is a sign of PTSD when you are numbing and dissociating strongly from trauma material, also panic and strong anxiety, it comes from suppressing trauma material and gets to the surface through panic and magical thinking.
I have this a lot, that I have to touch certain things in an order to stop things from happening or redo my hair to keep things from happening or wear the socks I donīt like to keep things from happening or wash my hands one more time etc.
sometimes itīs more sometimes itīs less. I have it too, when Iīm positive excited about things, Iīm afraid of losing the good feeling then.
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