hi, kaspju I'm sorry if any of this sounds patronising i've never been good at picking my words.

I have on many occassions felt the way you have described, allthough I'm not sure how you define a great relationship, as I have never been able to find anyone special who could cope with me or the way I am, most have left me within 2 months.
I know it can be a real blow to feel that you've pushed someone you care greatly about away.

I hope you can take some comfort in that others feel this way and that people care about and want to support you through this difficult time.