Update for my friends who care.
Am waiting for surgery on Monday....have to see a cardiologist on Friday, though I don't know what he will want...there is no time for tests before the surgery now... I am running into many obstacles because of the insurance I have....they are trying to make me give up...they are taking away much of my state help now and really screwing me to the wall. I have tones of bills to pay...and still haven't heard a peep from the hospital from my psyche visit for five days back in November.....I am sure that will cost a pretty penny...which I cannot afford...this surgery will be making me pay for years....oh dear...well ranting doesn't seem to be helping me today...just feeling useless, hopeless, fat, lazy and unable to care for myself...typical BPD...and when I need it least....hope you all are coping better and stay strong. I am staying with my son and his wife for a few weeks but will check back in here soon...y'all take care now!!!!